Random Talk

[Nintex]

I mean this in the kindest way possible, but it's a lot of words for a girl you aint met yet. You need to get her to a coffee shop in daylight before putting any more thought into it.

I remember once I got dead excited about this blonde girl who wrote fantasy novels. I met her and she spent the first 20 minutes telling me about her best friend and room mate being attacked in a shopping centre a few years before. She was also honking.

I agree with you so I've made up my mind and figured out what to do and yes in a moment of post nut flu clarity.

As far as I'm concerned we're going on a dinner date as planned, I'm not breaking my word on that one. But I will relieve some of the pressure from that date. I've send her a kind, charming invitation with the details. I've picked out a nice restaurant. She likes to spice up her own food because it tastes dull compared to Africa, so no artsy fartsy place but a good steak and fish selection where you can just pepper and salt up your stuff as much as you like. We'll meet at the station and walk there.

However it's not fair for me to go on a date and tell her during the date that there is no chance of anything after or nothing changed. It would be a waste of her time and dishonest. 

I've simply looked at the facts to see if starting a relationship is at all possible if she wants it (income, reception of family, friends, time, effort etc.) and the answer is yes. 
So my answer to that question would be simple, if we really fit together as well as we think we do, my intentions for future dates will be serious.

Now that might be 3 dates and it doesn't work out anyway or 10 dates and we realize: "eh, I guess this is actually serious huh".
I think that would be fair and more commitment compared to "exploring my options". 

Oh and I should only dump the edited versions of my diaries here and I appreciate all the support

Whoever said just be yourself or the best version of yourself was right on the money, all those things attracted her to me.

So many bros told me, Nintex don't tell her you have the flu. But I did, because I wanted to be honest and she made it a team effort to make me recover.

And yes, while it is true that women don't want just a 'nice guy' even if they say they do (honestly compared to her I'm kind of an asshole and I'm sure some poor pious NGO sob has swiped right and never got a match ) it is not all as black and white as you think. After all she picked me out of the gacha machine.

I truely hope it works out and if it doesn't that she finds someone else to make her happy. 
She's been through some shit, she's a survivor and she deserves the best.