Random Talk

[Nintex]

Well closure I send her the message. If I turn this into a book she's entitled to 50%. 

I also know why I gave up on kids on a whim. I don’t want to pass on my chronic disease. With that I gave her a powerful weapon she can use when people bring up her choice and make them feel like shit, my story.

She can join our movie club if she wants and well she's entitled to a fuck if she wants that too. Just as the redhead works in my office and is a cuddlebear and lunch buddy now and the Georgian girl shares her photo shoots and art with me.

As for dating, I have my new bed but I'm also going to try something new after my Canada trip.

I'm going to seek out something very specific through a dating agency: astma/COPD, kids her choice.

She'll be low on melanine = Red Hair
No or few animals
Astma means she won't be fat ever
She'll be a survivor like me
She'll avoid the same things as me
And she'd love the idea to leave a big city for a coastal town with fresh air and beach walks.

Plus she deserves a good life way more than some transactional basic bitch. But a lot guys probably pass on a girl like that.

Truth is I manage it well but my astma will always limit me. Either the trigger or the astma itself. I nearly died a dozen times as a kid mostly because adults said I should man up and was just pretending. Until I threw up tough pleghm and mucus all over them and nearly choked unable to cough it all up. I'll never forget those horrified faces.

I can pretend I felt shit for days because my heart was broken but I already felt that way before she canned. Simple reason my chest hurt and had 50% less energy I made a house visit to a vet.